Just in case any of you thought I was exaggerating my son's projectile vomiting... :)
Sunday, November 20, 2011
Friday, November 18, 2011
This, That and Another Thing
This, that and another thing... and it really is just that. My world seems to moving in a million different directions each day and it's somewhat overwhelming. I give tons of appreciation towards mothers who stay home with their children all day long. I give mothers credit who breastfeed, especially those who push through a whole year, work and never let their tummies be filled with formula. I give the moms and dads credit who make a working commitment to stay healthy and fit while raising children. But most of all, I acknowledge the humbleness it takes to be a supportive and loving house wife that makes her home a haven for all those who seek it. Needless to say, I struggle greatly each day with each of these.
With that said, I did attempt to try and run my first session of "Couch to 10k in 13 Weeks"... and I succeeded! For the fit mom, my running schedule may be pitiful, but for me it was a big accomplishment. It took a lot of self control to push through being uncomfortable while running and to make myself see that these workouts will be worth it. And for the day, it was worth it. I felt great (once I showered the disgustingness off), for the whole rest of the day. I ate well for most of the day and then disappointed myself and ate recklessly that evening. I am an emotional eater, and I struggle daily with this. When things get stressful at home, I eat, when I am sad, I eat; I am working to change this but it is a deeply rooted problem that takes tons of attention. It's like a roaring beast inside of me that I have to keep watch on or it will be escape and wreak havoc. It seems where in one area I succeed, such as running, and utterly fail in other, my diet.
For any of you who would like to join me in this running challenge, here is my running schedule at the end of this post. All of the days when I'm not running, I am trying to find another fun way to work out.
I also made some interesting things for dinner last night. We went grocery shopping on Wednesday night and bought all of the raw ingredients to make all of our meals for the rest of November from scratch. Last night was my first attempt at making my own salad dressing and twice baked potatoes. The salad dressing looked like ranch and was made of out of buttermilk and sour cream, but it tasted more light a vinaigrette dressing, which wasn't really appealing to me, but it did taste fine if that's the sort of dressing you prefer. The potatoes, on the other hand, were awesome! Here's how you make them.
Stuffed Potatoes
With 4 large russet potatoes, cut off each end of the potato and throw them into an oven at 400F for one hour. After that time, remove them and cut them in half lengthwise. Take out the inside of each potato and mash well with a fork. Mix the following ingredients in a bowl:
~1 cup of fat-free ricotta cheese
~1 cup of Cheddar cheese
~mashed potato
~1/4 tsp of salt
~1/8 tsp of pepper
~1/4 tsp of garlic powder
Stuff each of the potatoes into their old skins (they'll be packed and heaping), lower the oven temperature to 350F and bake for 15 minutes more. Wallah! These were pretty tasty, in fact, we couldn't eat four large russet potatoes, so before I baked them a final time, I packaged four halves up and froze them for another day! My big sister Tess just gave us her big chest freezer, as they got a newer and bigger one. My plan is to make homemade meals each day of the rest of November and freeze part of each meal for quick meals later on for when I go back to work and things get more complicated. Today we are hauling down our new freezer to the basement and we're going sand it down and repaint it with white appliance paint. It should look brand new when we're all done, according to the husband. I'm superbly excited for this freezer!
Lastly, yesterday seemed to be such an off day for all of us at the Frits household. Bella was into the clinic for x-rays on her leg, since she's been limping for almost a week. So with blood drawn and x-rays, they are working on figuring out why she's gimping around. Good news is that she didn't break or fracture anything, but since it got a little worse and then gets better throughout the day, the doctor was thinking it is a bacterial infection in her joint. Common? I have no clue, nor do I know how a person even gets an infection in their joints. We have to wait until Monday for those results, but as it turns out she's starting to walk more normally and it seems to be clearing up, which is what her doctor said would happen (because bacterial infections in your joints clear up on their own I guess).
I went to work for training, which was fine. Had my 6 week post-baby appointment, which was fine. It allowed me to discuss my plans of weight loss and a breast augmentation surgery in 18 months or so. If I can get my diet and exercise on track and lose the weight I want, I should be on schedule for those life changes in no time. But coming home to a tired Dad and a grumpy daughter was tough. Landon needed attention, everyone was getting hungry, the house was a mess and I was tired (like normal). So the night ended badly, with me being grumpy and angry at the world. So as I laid in bed, trying to get my very fussy Landon to take a bottle after he threw up 4 times, Bella started crying. It's bad enough that Landon couldn't hold down my milk and I resorted to sensitive newborn formula, which had me feeling guilty, but then Bella starts whimpering. I hate that she doesn't feel good, and I can always tell when that is because she sleeps horribly.
So I went in and got her, laid her in bed with us and started to nurse Landon after his bottle, hoping he'd calm down and put him to sleep. In my grumpiness, I said, "seems like the only one who appreciates me is Bella, as she's the only one not grumpy at me right now." What a pity party huh, it wasn't that bad really, I was letting myself feel bad for myself, which I do often. So at 12:30 in the morning, all four of us in one bed, and a pukey 6 week old on my lap, I contemplate my day. And just as I felt like bawling, my cute little daughter puts her little hand on the small of my back and pats it. She rubs my back and lightly taps it, just like I do for her when she's upset. That turned my mood around instantly and felt incredibly loved. Here is my 21 month old daughter who has been feeling like poop for about a week and who has been an absolute Gremlin for the day and terrorized my entire house, and she's comforting me. And in that loving moment, everything in my heart was healed and I smiled a genuine smile for what it seemed, the first time in that entire day. So I turn around, kiss her forehead and push back her blond hair and whisper, "Thanks Bella, I needed that," and settle in for the rest of the night. I went to bed feeling like the luckiest Mom in the whole wide world with a sweet little lady for a daughter. She may be so naughty throughout the whole day and she make have eyes that speak as much, just saying she is seeking for all kinds of trouble, but she has the biggest of hearts and I am always reminded of this at the oddest of times.
I went to bed, praying and promising that today would be a better day. A new day, a new start, and as I had heard once before, this is why God made the sun and moon come up each and every day. With each rising sun, we get to start anew and create a new beginning and forget about all of the failures of yesterday. And with each glowing moon, comes a promise to an end of a crazy day and that when we fall fast asleep that night, God will replace it with our warming sun, for yet another new beginning.
13 Week Learn to Run Program
Always walk 5 minutes slow and easy to warm up before each session and again to cool down after each session (this is included in the session times):
Week 1
Session 1 - 34 min. Run 1 minute. Walk 2 minutes. Do this 8 times.
Session 2 - 28 min. Run 1 minute. Walk 2 minutes. Do this 6 times.
Session 3 - 31 min. Run 1 minute. Walk 2 minutes. Do this 7 times.
Week 2
Session 1 - 38 min. Run 2 minutes. Walk 2 minutes. Do this 7 times.
Session 2 - 31 min. Run 1 minute. Walk 2 minutes. Do this 7 times.
Session 3 - 34 min. Run 2 minutes. Walk 2 minutes. Do this 6 times.
Week 3
Session 1 - 45 min. Run 3 minutes. Walk 2 minutes. Do this 7 times.
Session 2 - 34 min. Run 2 minutes. Walk 2 minutes. Do this 6 times.
Session 3 - 40 min. Run 3 minutes. Walk 2 minutes. Do this 6 times.
Week 4 - EASY RECOVERY WEEK
Session 1 - 40 min. Run 3 minutes. Walk 2 minutes. Do this 6 times.
Session 2 - 30 min. Run 2 minutes. Walk 2 minutes. Do this 5 times.
Session 3 - 40 min. Run 2 minutes. Walk 3 minutes. Do this 6 times.
Week 5
Session 1 - 46 min. Run 3 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Do this 9 times.
Session 2 - 34 min. Run 2 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Do this 8 times.
Session 3 - 42 min. Run 3 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Do this 8 times.
Week 6
Session 1 - 52 min. Run 5 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Do this 7 times.
Session 2 - 38 min. Run 3 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Do this 7 times.
Session 3 - 50 min. Run 3 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Do this 10 times.
Week 7
Session 1 - 54 min. Run 10 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Do this 4 times.
Session 2 - 40 min. Run 4 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Do this 6 times.
Session 3 - 52 min. Run 5 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Do this 7 times.
Week 8 *EASY RECOVERY WEEK
Session 1 - 54 min. Run 10 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Do this 4 times.
Session 2 - 38 min. Run 3 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Do this 7 times.
Session 3 - 46 min. Run 5 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Do this 6 times.
Week 9
Session 1 - 68 min. Run 10 minutes/walk 1 minute; Run 15 minutes/walk 1 minute. Run 20 minutes/walk 1 minute. Run 10 minutes.
Session 2 - 46 min. Run 5 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Do this 6 times.
Session 3 - 54 min. Run 10 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Do this 4 times.
Week 10
Session 1 - 72 min. Run 10 minutes/walk 1 minute. Run 20 minutes/walk 1 minute. Run 30 minutes.
Session 2 - 54 min. Run 10 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Do this 4 times.
Session 3 - 57 min. Run 20 minutes/walk 1 minute. Run 15 minutes/walk 1 minute. Run 10 minutes.
Week 11
Session 1 - 71 min. Run 40 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Run 20 minutes.
Session 2 - 54 min. Run 10 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Do this 4 times.
Session 3 - 57 min. Run 20 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Run 15 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Run 10 minutes.
Week 12 *EASY VOLUME WEEK
Session 1 - 60 min. Run 50 minutes.
Session 2 - 43 min. Run 10 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Do this 3 times.
Session 3 - 52 min. Run 15 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Run 15 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Run 10 minutes.
Week 13
Session 1 - 50 min. Run 40 minutes.
Session 2 - 43 min. Run 10 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Do this 3 times.
Session 3 Event Day 10K: have fun, and take care not to start out too quickly.
With that said, I did attempt to try and run my first session of "Couch to 10k in 13 Weeks"... and I succeeded! For the fit mom, my running schedule may be pitiful, but for me it was a big accomplishment. It took a lot of self control to push through being uncomfortable while running and to make myself see that these workouts will be worth it. And for the day, it was worth it. I felt great (once I showered the disgustingness off), for the whole rest of the day. I ate well for most of the day and then disappointed myself and ate recklessly that evening. I am an emotional eater, and I struggle daily with this. When things get stressful at home, I eat, when I am sad, I eat; I am working to change this but it is a deeply rooted problem that takes tons of attention. It's like a roaring beast inside of me that I have to keep watch on or it will be escape and wreak havoc. It seems where in one area I succeed, such as running, and utterly fail in other, my diet.
For any of you who would like to join me in this running challenge, here is my running schedule at the end of this post. All of the days when I'm not running, I am trying to find another fun way to work out.
I also made some interesting things for dinner last night. We went grocery shopping on Wednesday night and bought all of the raw ingredients to make all of our meals for the rest of November from scratch. Last night was my first attempt at making my own salad dressing and twice baked potatoes. The salad dressing looked like ranch and was made of out of buttermilk and sour cream, but it tasted more light a vinaigrette dressing, which wasn't really appealing to me, but it did taste fine if that's the sort of dressing you prefer. The potatoes, on the other hand, were awesome! Here's how you make them.
Stuffed Potatoes
With 4 large russet potatoes, cut off each end of the potato and throw them into an oven at 400F for one hour. After that time, remove them and cut them in half lengthwise. Take out the inside of each potato and mash well with a fork. Mix the following ingredients in a bowl:
~1 cup of fat-free ricotta cheese
~1 cup of Cheddar cheese
~mashed potato
~1/4 tsp of salt
~1/8 tsp of pepper
~1/4 tsp of garlic powder
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| The freezer all complete! |
Lastly, yesterday seemed to be such an off day for all of us at the Frits household. Bella was into the clinic for x-rays on her leg, since she's been limping for almost a week. So with blood drawn and x-rays, they are working on figuring out why she's gimping around. Good news is that she didn't break or fracture anything, but since it got a little worse and then gets better throughout the day, the doctor was thinking it is a bacterial infection in her joint. Common? I have no clue, nor do I know how a person even gets an infection in their joints. We have to wait until Monday for those results, but as it turns out she's starting to walk more normally and it seems to be clearing up, which is what her doctor said would happen (because bacterial infections in your joints clear up on their own I guess).
I went to work for training, which was fine. Had my 6 week post-baby appointment, which was fine. It allowed me to discuss my plans of weight loss and a breast augmentation surgery in 18 months or so. If I can get my diet and exercise on track and lose the weight I want, I should be on schedule for those life changes in no time. But coming home to a tired Dad and a grumpy daughter was tough. Landon needed attention, everyone was getting hungry, the house was a mess and I was tired (like normal). So the night ended badly, with me being grumpy and angry at the world. So as I laid in bed, trying to get my very fussy Landon to take a bottle after he threw up 4 times, Bella started crying. It's bad enough that Landon couldn't hold down my milk and I resorted to sensitive newborn formula, which had me feeling guilty, but then Bella starts whimpering. I hate that she doesn't feel good, and I can always tell when that is because she sleeps horribly.
So I went in and got her, laid her in bed with us and started to nurse Landon after his bottle, hoping he'd calm down and put him to sleep. In my grumpiness, I said, "seems like the only one who appreciates me is Bella, as she's the only one not grumpy at me right now." What a pity party huh, it wasn't that bad really, I was letting myself feel bad for myself, which I do often. So at 12:30 in the morning, all four of us in one bed, and a pukey 6 week old on my lap, I contemplate my day. And just as I felt like bawling, my cute little daughter puts her little hand on the small of my back and pats it. She rubs my back and lightly taps it, just like I do for her when she's upset. That turned my mood around instantly and felt incredibly loved. Here is my 21 month old daughter who has been feeling like poop for about a week and who has been an absolute Gremlin for the day and terrorized my entire house, and she's comforting me. And in that loving moment, everything in my heart was healed and I smiled a genuine smile for what it seemed, the first time in that entire day. So I turn around, kiss her forehead and push back her blond hair and whisper, "Thanks Bella, I needed that," and settle in for the rest of the night. I went to bed feeling like the luckiest Mom in the whole wide world with a sweet little lady for a daughter. She may be so naughty throughout the whole day and she make have eyes that speak as much, just saying she is seeking for all kinds of trouble, but she has the biggest of hearts and I am always reminded of this at the oddest of times.
I went to bed, praying and promising that today would be a better day. A new day, a new start, and as I had heard once before, this is why God made the sun and moon come up each and every day. With each rising sun, we get to start anew and create a new beginning and forget about all of the failures of yesterday. And with each glowing moon, comes a promise to an end of a crazy day and that when we fall fast asleep that night, God will replace it with our warming sun, for yet another new beginning.
13 Week Learn to Run Program
Always walk 5 minutes slow and easy to warm up before each session and again to cool down after each session (this is included in the session times):
Week 1
Session 1 - 34 min. Run 1 minute. Walk 2 minutes. Do this 8 times.
Session 2 - 28 min. Run 1 minute. Walk 2 minutes. Do this 6 times.
Session 3 - 31 min. Run 1 minute. Walk 2 minutes. Do this 7 times.
Week 2
Session 1 - 38 min. Run 2 minutes. Walk 2 minutes. Do this 7 times.
Session 2 - 31 min. Run 1 minute. Walk 2 minutes. Do this 7 times.
Session 3 - 34 min. Run 2 minutes. Walk 2 minutes. Do this 6 times.
Week 3
Session 1 - 45 min. Run 3 minutes. Walk 2 minutes. Do this 7 times.
Session 2 - 34 min. Run 2 minutes. Walk 2 minutes. Do this 6 times.
Session 3 - 40 min. Run 3 minutes. Walk 2 minutes. Do this 6 times.
Week 4 - EASY RECOVERY WEEK
Session 1 - 40 min. Run 3 minutes. Walk 2 minutes. Do this 6 times.
Session 2 - 30 min. Run 2 minutes. Walk 2 minutes. Do this 5 times.
Session 3 - 40 min. Run 2 minutes. Walk 3 minutes. Do this 6 times.
Week 5
Session 1 - 46 min. Run 3 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Do this 9 times.
Session 2 - 34 min. Run 2 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Do this 8 times.
Session 3 - 42 min. Run 3 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Do this 8 times.
Week 6
Session 1 - 52 min. Run 5 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Do this 7 times.
Session 2 - 38 min. Run 3 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Do this 7 times.
Session 3 - 50 min. Run 3 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Do this 10 times.
Week 7
Session 1 - 54 min. Run 10 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Do this 4 times.
Session 2 - 40 min. Run 4 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Do this 6 times.
Session 3 - 52 min. Run 5 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Do this 7 times.
Week 8 *EASY RECOVERY WEEK
Session 1 - 54 min. Run 10 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Do this 4 times.
Session 2 - 38 min. Run 3 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Do this 7 times.
Session 3 - 46 min. Run 5 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Do this 6 times.
Week 9
Session 1 - 68 min. Run 10 minutes/walk 1 minute; Run 15 minutes/walk 1 minute. Run 20 minutes/walk 1 minute. Run 10 minutes.
Session 2 - 46 min. Run 5 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Do this 6 times.
Session 3 - 54 min. Run 10 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Do this 4 times.
Week 10
Session 1 - 72 min. Run 10 minutes/walk 1 minute. Run 20 minutes/walk 1 minute. Run 30 minutes.
Session 2 - 54 min. Run 10 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Do this 4 times.
Session 3 - 57 min. Run 20 minutes/walk 1 minute. Run 15 minutes/walk 1 minute. Run 10 minutes.
Week 11
Session 1 - 71 min. Run 40 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Run 20 minutes.
Session 2 - 54 min. Run 10 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Do this 4 times.
Session 3 - 57 min. Run 20 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Run 15 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Run 10 minutes.
Week 12 *EASY VOLUME WEEK
Session 1 - 60 min. Run 50 minutes.
Session 2 - 43 min. Run 10 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Do this 3 times.
Session 3 - 52 min. Run 15 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Run 15 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Run 10 minutes.
Week 13
Session 1 - 50 min. Run 40 minutes.
Session 2 - 43 min. Run 10 minutes. Walk 1 minute. Do this 3 times.
Session 3 Event Day 10K: have fun, and take care not to start out too quickly.
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
The First Steps of Faith
It was beautiful, they poured the warm blessed water over my sons head and said the beloved words, "I baptise you in the name of the Father, and the Son, and the Holy Spirit." And just like that, he has become part of the church, washed from original sin, and without even knowing it, has taken his first steps in follow the faith that we will try so hard to bring him up in.
Despite the cold weather, a grumpy sibling of his and my camera dying, it was perfect, you couldn't dampen the day. And Landon did his best to let the world know he was around and that this was all about him. He carried on and cried and with his uncanny habit of vomiting at the worst of times, when Father Jerry asked to lay the child so his head was over the pool of water, we all held our breaths and thankfully, he held in his last meal.
My Confirmation sponsor is also a sibling of mine, and that would be my youngest sister Lisa. She has also played a huge role in my life as a Catholic. She is a one of a kind woman, as she is deep in her faith and is very humble. She carries all of the qualities that we, as Christians and Catholics, are called to carry within us. In fact, that is something that both of these sisters have, and I think that is why I am so inclined to be around them. Lisa helped me through college, when things got really hairy, she was there. She always provides me with the best advice, often telling me what I need to hear, rather than what I want to and she does so with grace and kindness.
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| Dragonfly Cupcakes that I made for Landon |
I slept well the night before, knowing that the next morning Landon would be baptised. I was uneasy that we were waiting as long as we were. I was excited that some of my family could make it to witness this beautiful event with us and that they were also able to join us for the great meal that my family had put together in celebration. Thank you everyone for joining in our joy and celebrating with us. As soon as I have pictures developed, I will be posting them.
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| Jen putting the food out for the Baptism celebration |
Friday, November 11, 2011
The Adventures of Gremlin +2
Today was a great day for an adventure. It was freezing cold yesterday, and as the snow fell I was feeling a bit sad that the warm weather was behind us. But as the next day dawned, it started warming up. The snow started to melt and can now only be found in the deep shadows of the woods. It was a beautiful 54 degree weather day! So when the energy in the house became maxed, we decided to put that energy outside in the form of a nice nature walk through the woods behind Grandma and Grandpa Frits' house.Behind the house is a nice little trail that lands on the west side of Deer River, MN. We walked to the place where pony league football used to be practiced, and where the dreaded season of tennis during the school year was taught (I hated that part of gym). We walked to the store and each got a cookie to eat on our journey back to the house. When Bella tired, her big boy cousin, Ethan, carried her so she could catch up. The Gremlins were full of smiles and beamed with curiosity as they ran through the area.
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| Ethan, Nolan and Miss Bella |
Bella figured out how to roll down the hill, and discovered how incredibly fun it is. A childhood couldn't be complete without such experiences anyhow...
We learnt how to determine the age of a tree.
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| This tree was 42 years old! |
It's fun to see all of the new things kids learn just by interacting with the world around them, hopefully the weather channel is right and we have an even nicer day tomorrow so we can go on exploring more.
Wednesday, November 09, 2011
Bragging Rights Granted
As I had posted earlier, it is with a sense of pride that I post bragging rigthts onto my blog. The husband has brought home a deer and we now have venison to last us the whole year long! So without much further ado, here are the men and their deer.
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Phil's big doe that he harvest the first Monday of deer season at the Stangler Farm |
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| Grandpa Garry's 180lb Doe shot Tuesday at Deer Camp |
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| My Hubby, Tim's 170lb Spike Buck shot Monday night at Deer Camp |
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| My Dad and his 8 pt Buck shot on opener day on the Stangler Farm |
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| Nick and his 8 pt buck with David and Sarah, his kiddos |
Tuesday, November 08, 2011
The Healing Sense of Home
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| Bella roaming the earth of the Stangler Farm, with bare feet, just like me! |
I wake up to the soft sound of little feet roaming the floors above, the sound makes me smile. It is still so dark in the far room of my parent's basement. I love sleeping here, with no windows and with it being somewhat tucked away, it is by far the most peaceful and quiet room to take refuge in after a busy day. I will myself out of the comfy bed, Grandma had taken Bella awhile back when she decided she was ready to wake up and face the world. With two Gremlins keeping me up at night, it tends to be much earlier than I am ready to get up. I take a sigh of relief, Landon is still sleeping; he's not feeling good. It is such a gift that their Grandmother takes them in the morning to allow us to sleep a few more minutes or a couple more hours and rejuvenate. Grandma doesn't know how much all she does means to us, both Grandmas. Coming home is this mother's vacation, as I believe it is for my siblings too.
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| Grandma Sue and Natalia Sue |
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| Mitch and Mindy Drotts and I We grew up practically like siblings only being 2+ years apart in age. |
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| Grandma Sue, Natalia and Grandpa Stangler |
I am the youngest of 10 children in the Stangler family. Three brothers and six sisters, the men are often outnumbered, until lately. We've had a spurt of male grandchildren born into the family, only after a large run of girls. 21 grandchildren, 11 boys, 10 girls; it's a pretty even mix. When the great grandchildren are born, making me a very happy Great Auntie, we'll probably have to move into a bigger building for Christmas, not out of want but out of necessity. We are an ever growing family and this big family is quite the blessing. Where some people feel quite alone throughout their life, with very few people to support them through their trials and tribulations, I have two parents, 8 living siblings, two children of my own, a loving husband (and his famiy too), and 19 nephews and nieces that have no choice but to love me for who I am and accept me. Some of these individuals are the greatest and closest friends that I have, becoming more than just family to me, but my confidants.
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| Siblings Pam, Mary, my Dad, me, Lisa, my Mom, Tess and Barbie |
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| My sister Lisa and I at my confirmation. She was my sponsor. |
Each day I wake up in this house where I grew up, I feel that the hole within me growing smaller, the void created from the darkness of the world around me is filled. I am inspired just by being here, to become more of who I am truly meant to be. I feel a sense of healing that derives only from what a close family and God could provide. I get to revisit the old trails behind our house, roam through the golden fields that are readying for winter, drive the same paths and go the same churches that I grew up in. The Saint Joseph's church that I was baptised in, is the same church where I received my first communion and spent the majority of my life learning about my faith. It is still exactly the same as it was 25 year ago. It looks the same, the members that still go there are the ones that where there when I was little, it even smells the same. And even though the massive amounts of incense they insist on burning has always made me physically sick, I still look forward to it and expect it. It is all part of the process, and it's what makes this place what it is. When my life is chaotic and completely inconsistent, I at least know that I can come back to these places and feel at peace, as I know they will never change. In a very unstable world, they provide stability, even if it's in the smallest of ways.
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| Sarah and David at Grandmas during a hot day. Grandma filled up this tub and let the kids dunk in to cool down. Doesn't get much sweeter than this! |
Sunday, November 06, 2011
God Bless the Baby that Sleeps in You - 40 Days of Life
It is in memory of the innocent who have died in the most epic, and by far the most gruesome battle of all ages, that I write this. None of us are fond wars or the killing of innocent beings, even worse is the killing of innocent babies. The worst part is that this war is waging in our very own land, the land of the free. But really, how can we call it the land of the free where we pride ourselves of free choice, life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness when these values are not given to all individuals equally. What separates an individual from these basic rights we feel so entitled to. Does race separate us, or gender, or sexual preference? How about age? Some would say that we don't discriminate at all, that we are all truly equal. I beg to differ.
A life is a life, regardless of what people say, or the way the try to put it. Nothing can justify the taking of lives, of any age. Pro choice and being a Christian is an oxymoron. Like water and oil shaken in a bottle, as much as we try to get them to go together, they simply don't mix. Have you read Psalm 139:13-16? It states, "For you formed my inmost being; you knit me in my mother's womb. I praise you, so wonderfully you made me; wonderful are your works! My very self you knew; my bones were not hidden from you. When I was being made in secret, fashioned as in the depths of the earth. Your eyes foresaw my actions; in your book all are written down; my days were shaped, before one came to be."
God knew us even before we were born. The days of our existence were written in the book of life in heaven. He had a purpose for us, a plan, and he knew it before we even knew the existence of life that was growing within us. In fact, he is the one who intricately made us, formed us and made sure we were just as perfect as could be. He gave us mothers the gift of feeling this life within us, to feel that God given connection. And while this creation of love formed within us he worked on our hearts and expanded the amount of love we possess so that it could envelop this new precious child within us.
But when we take our lives into our own hands and tell God that we don't want to follow his plans and we are unaccepting of these blessings and miracles of life, we choose to end it. We choose inequality, we choose death, we choose murder. Cutting off the connection of God in our lives entirely. These babies are precious, they are our future and we are destroying our future. We pray for cures for cancer, AIDS, MS and so many other illnesses and when we don't receive it we cry out in anger and curse God for not bringing us an end to it all. It is entirely possible that we were given an answer to our prayers, a special being God had formed within one of us, and chose to end that life before that life could even take their first breath. There is nothing that could justify this war, to make it right. Abortion is murder, and this war is the most disturbing to hit the world.
I encourage all pro life believers to pray for these unborn children of God, and pray for them every day, especially today on the very last day of the 40 days of life. If you are a person of pro choice, I challenge you to look into your hearts and search for the truth, especially if you are a Christian. Ask God for guidance on the matter, so that you too may believe in the value of a life, unborn or not. Our future, our babies and life depend on it.
If you are pregnant and are feeling lost and buried by the circumstance, I encourage you to look into the Pro Choice Clinic.
http://www.firstchoiceclinic.com/
"God bless the babies that sleep in you." ~Mason Jennings
A life is a life, regardless of what people say, or the way the try to put it. Nothing can justify the taking of lives, of any age. Pro choice and being a Christian is an oxymoron. Like water and oil shaken in a bottle, as much as we try to get them to go together, they simply don't mix. Have you read Psalm 139:13-16? It states, "For you formed my inmost being; you knit me in my mother's womb. I praise you, so wonderfully you made me; wonderful are your works! My very self you knew; my bones were not hidden from you. When I was being made in secret, fashioned as in the depths of the earth. Your eyes foresaw my actions; in your book all are written down; my days were shaped, before one came to be."
God knew us even before we were born. The days of our existence were written in the book of life in heaven. He had a purpose for us, a plan, and he knew it before we even knew the existence of life that was growing within us. In fact, he is the one who intricately made us, formed us and made sure we were just as perfect as could be. He gave us mothers the gift of feeling this life within us, to feel that God given connection. And while this creation of love formed within us he worked on our hearts and expanded the amount of love we possess so that it could envelop this new precious child within us.
But when we take our lives into our own hands and tell God that we don't want to follow his plans and we are unaccepting of these blessings and miracles of life, we choose to end it. We choose inequality, we choose death, we choose murder. Cutting off the connection of God in our lives entirely. These babies are precious, they are our future and we are destroying our future. We pray for cures for cancer, AIDS, MS and so many other illnesses and when we don't receive it we cry out in anger and curse God for not bringing us an end to it all. It is entirely possible that we were given an answer to our prayers, a special being God had formed within one of us, and chose to end that life before that life could even take their first breath. There is nothing that could justify this war, to make it right. Abortion is murder, and this war is the most disturbing to hit the world.
I encourage all pro life believers to pray for these unborn children of God, and pray for them every day, especially today on the very last day of the 40 days of life. If you are a person of pro choice, I challenge you to look into your hearts and search for the truth, especially if you are a Christian. Ask God for guidance on the matter, so that you too may believe in the value of a life, unborn or not. Our future, our babies and life depend on it.
If you are pregnant and are feeling lost and buried by the circumstance, I encourage you to look into the Pro Choice Clinic.
http://www.firstchoiceclinic.com/
"God bless the babies that sleep in you." ~Mason Jennings
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| Image from: http://www.russellmoore.com/2011/07/18/an-open-letter-to-an-unborn-baby/ |
Those Fury Brown Creatures that Bring Us Together - Hunting
The house is quiet, not even a mouse could be awake and moving right now as I'm sure I'd even hear them creeping along. Earlier today, the Stangler Farm House reminded me of the old children's rhyme with the over worked and over tired mother who lived in her shoe with her many many children. I'm actually surprised that there weren't children hanging out the windows, although I did see Bella trying push through one today. This house was busting at the seams, with tons of family coming together for deer season.
While the women held onto their better senses, which we almost always do, and stayed in our warm cozy beds with our babies, the men and fathers of the house pulled on their nickers and long underwear with their blaze orange attire and bared the frigid cold of these beautiful November mornings in Minnesota. I have to give the guys credit for that; seeing the sun come up in God's Country is something that brings peace to your soul and makes it worth it even if you don't see any furry brown creatures trotting your way. There's a reason they call it God's country and this place right here is why. People come from all over the world for this, and I'm lucky enough to call it home.
We sit here bundled up and we probably still manage to get frozen fingers, frost bitten ears and a rear that has been permanently fused to the stand just for one more year of deer season. It may be stupid, senseless or even crazy, yet year after year we all gather for it. Why? Because coming together and spending time at deer camp with the guys or at home with family is worth it, frozen feet or not.
I have spent my time out in the deer stand, worrying that my feet would never again regain feeling or warmth, and I can appreciate what the men do. But five years and two children later I find my favorite place to be is inside with the women. We spend the day running after our children, walking through the land mines of children's toys, sharing wisdom and stories of our youth, and sitting eagerly for the sound of a gunshot. That sound brings a sort of joy, relief and pride. Joy because the men are getting to do what guys do, shoot guns and hunt deer (and drink beer too). Relief for some of us as an out of state tag comes at a hefty price of about $140.00 and they get to bring something home for it that's worth the money. And pride because there is that primitive part of us that still exists. That we, as women of the house, are glad to see these big, strong men come home with their big kill, it's attractive because they are providing for their family.
It was a wonerful day, my husband reported back that no furry creatures had even been seen in their parts, but my dad got a beautiful 8 point buck and we feasted on a huge mid day meal fit for kings and just as big as Thanksgiving dinner. The majority of our family made it home, we caught up on the excitement of each others lives and the children got to play and terrorize each other. Home is definately where the heart is here.
While the women held onto their better senses, which we almost always do, and stayed in our warm cozy beds with our babies, the men and fathers of the house pulled on their nickers and long underwear with their blaze orange attire and bared the frigid cold of these beautiful November mornings in Minnesota. I have to give the guys credit for that; seeing the sun come up in God's Country is something that brings peace to your soul and makes it worth it even if you don't see any furry brown creatures trotting your way. There's a reason they call it God's country and this place right here is why. People come from all over the world for this, and I'm lucky enough to call it home.
We sit here bundled up and we probably still manage to get frozen fingers, frost bitten ears and a rear that has been permanently fused to the stand just for one more year of deer season. It may be stupid, senseless or even crazy, yet year after year we all gather for it. Why? Because coming together and spending time at deer camp with the guys or at home with family is worth it, frozen feet or not.
I have spent my time out in the deer stand, worrying that my feet would never again regain feeling or warmth, and I can appreciate what the men do. But five years and two children later I find my favorite place to be is inside with the women. We spend the day running after our children, walking through the land mines of children's toys, sharing wisdom and stories of our youth, and sitting eagerly for the sound of a gunshot. That sound brings a sort of joy, relief and pride. Joy because the men are getting to do what guys do, shoot guns and hunt deer (and drink beer too). Relief for some of us as an out of state tag comes at a hefty price of about $140.00 and they get to bring something home for it that's worth the money. And pride because there is that primitive part of us that still exists. That we, as women of the house, are glad to see these big, strong men come home with their big kill, it's attractive because they are providing for their family.
It was a wonerful day, my husband reported back that no furry creatures had even been seen in their parts, but my dad got a beautiful 8 point buck and we feasted on a huge mid day meal fit for kings and just as big as Thanksgiving dinner. The majority of our family made it home, we caught up on the excitement of each others lives and the children got to play and terrorize each other. Home is definately where the heart is here.
Tuesday, November 01, 2011
The Gremlins Go Spooking
A few pounds of candy later and some added inches to my waist line and we've had ourselves a great first Halloween outing. We braved the chilly late October evening with my sister-in-law and her two precious kids, Sarah and David. Bella trekked around as the cutest little pirate ever, and probably the happiest too. She took the night on with ease as if she was a pro. It helped having her cousin, Sarah, along who was the beauty of the bunch, showing off her elegant blue ballroom gown, complete with a crown and a wand to rule us all into glitter and glee in the land of Sarabythia. Landon was a hungry cow, and made it to one house before he puked all over his outfit and was sent to spend the rest of the evening cuddling Grandma Stangler. David lasted with us a little longer than Landon and was a pumpkin, which fit his perfect plump complexion. He's grown so much since we've seen him last and he's going to be a wholesome little boy, perfect for football. He sports the same gopher cheeks that Landon does now, as did Bella when she was a baby; about the cutest baby feature ever.
Halloween, aside from the crazy, Gothic and demonic stuff that some people follow, is one of the cutest and most precious times when you're children are little (I'll add fun to the list of adjectives when the kids a little older and easier to direct). At this age, currently, the children think that an open door means we get to tromp into a Stanger's house and start exploring. Gladly, many people find this curious attribute adorable, as long as it doesn't continue on into their older years... :) Listening to Sarah talk so intelligently and clear, reminds me that in just a few short months, Bella will be babbling more words and then sentences, making us wish why we were so keen on getting her to start talking in the first place. But it was exciting to see four different age and developmental levels in the car at one time, not to mention four very different attitudes. It all makes me look forward to the years ahead of us, when all of us adults can sit back and watch our children play together, becoming the best of friends and growing up close like all of us sibling had.
As much as it's dreaded, I hope that Bella and Landon find themselves in a world of adventures when we go to Grandma and Grandpa's farm to visit. That with their cousins they'll be climbing the forbidden hay bales, scaling up the tall basswood trees that shade the back yard and running around the fields and woods. They always, and still in a way, serve as a foreign and exciting land that make all of the creatures of my imagination come alive for as long as I roamed this wild earth. There's something about this place that makes the kid in me come alive.
So from the Gremlin Post, we give you a Happy Halloween and a of this years little Gremlins in the Halloween attire! Enjoy and we'll add pictures as we get more!
Halloween, aside from the crazy, Gothic and demonic stuff that some people follow, is one of the cutest and most precious times when you're children are little (I'll add fun to the list of adjectives when the kids a little older and easier to direct). At this age, currently, the children think that an open door means we get to tromp into a Stanger's house and start exploring. Gladly, many people find this curious attribute adorable, as long as it doesn't continue on into their older years... :) Listening to Sarah talk so intelligently and clear, reminds me that in just a few short months, Bella will be babbling more words and then sentences, making us wish why we were so keen on getting her to start talking in the first place. But it was exciting to see four different age and developmental levels in the car at one time, not to mention four very different attitudes. It all makes me look forward to the years ahead of us, when all of us adults can sit back and watch our children play together, becoming the best of friends and growing up close like all of us sibling had.
As much as it's dreaded, I hope that Bella and Landon find themselves in a world of adventures when we go to Grandma and Grandpa's farm to visit. That with their cousins they'll be climbing the forbidden hay bales, scaling up the tall basswood trees that shade the back yard and running around the fields and woods. They always, and still in a way, serve as a foreign and exciting land that make all of the creatures of my imagination come alive for as long as I roamed this wild earth. There's something about this place that makes the kid in me come alive.
So from the Gremlin Post, we give you a Happy Halloween and a of this years little Gremlins in the Halloween attire! Enjoy and we'll add pictures as we get more!
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| Starting off our Halloween adventure at Grandma Stangler's house. Bella the Pirate, Landon the Cow, David the Pumpkin, and Sarah the Precious Princess. |
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| Landon the Hungry Cow |
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| David the Plump Pumpkin |
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| From the Veggie Tales, staring Rachel as Bob the Tomato and Liz Beth as Larry the Cucumber and their special guest Daddy the Policeman (but he really is a policeman) |
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| Brianna the Courageous Lion |
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| The Swan Family - Lisa and Phil and kids Evan, Rachel and Lizzy |
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| Sarah the Princess and her Pumpkin friend David |
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| Natalia staring as Strawberry Shortcake |
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| Strawberry Shortcake's Mother, Mary as a Whoopie Cushion |
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| Miss Bella as the Ardy Ar Har Pirate |
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